Undrawn Self Portrait
- The heart cracks into yellow yolk & white as it throbs through Instagram.
- The body walks to its reflection and squeezes itself shut.
- The ears tuned for sourness savor silence before they turn on & the mouth groans at
the loudness of the world.
- The brain breathes out a sigh as yesterday’s burdens are borrowed again.
- She mumbles about the crumbling capitalist cycle, tasting silence in return.
- She peels the banana & she wonders if one day, she’ll shed her skin & be silent.
- She consumes Radiohead’s Nude & the heart shatters at “you paint yourself white, and fill up with noise” as she imagines herself with an invisible paintbrush.
- In a family of scientists, the creative one chokes on the wrong genes.
- In her skull, there’s no more space for the pulp of afterthoughts.
- In the dark, she silently cracks herself open until she’s all shell and no yolk, again & again & again.
Sara Cao is a junior at John Burroughs School in St. Louis, Missouri. She is currently involved in her school’s newspaper, literary magazine, and Science Olympiad team. Outside of school, she is passionate about social justice issues, writing, drawing, listening to music, and eating Shin Black Ramen. Through her poetry, Sara strives to heal and inspire people who relate to the overall messages of her poems.
Art by: Diana Ryu